Post by t***@gmail.comHi Bassos,
More into detail.
How do you get your written text to you, by special keyboard, or sounds,
or is there someone assisting you or somesuch ?
(re being blind)
Post by t***@gmail.comThey told me they were doing an investigation on me for approximately 9 years.
What do they sound like ?
Inside or outside, serious, jokingly, technical, aggressive, beautiful,
how ?
Post by t***@gmail.comI was admitted to the hospital for Schizophrenia in 2006 for the first blown voices.
Okay, tell us about that particular episode.
What did you hear?
Post by t***@gmail.comMedicine has helped me for these 9 years until I had my dosage tapered to 1 mg of my Risperdal.
Numbing the mind is a temporary solution.
The brain will just make more receptors and retract reuptake.
Drugs (pharmaceuticals) are kinda a temporary cast, so the immediate
danger is contained. That means there would have to be actual danger to
you or people around you to start on drugs.
Once safe-ish, the work goes into deciding yourself what you do.
Post by t***@gmail.comThe voices were prominent ever since April of this year. They came up with strange scenarios.
Imagination is not bad in itself.
People call that psychotic only if you get to confused by them idea's.
Post by t***@gmail.comThe things I've learned was binaural meditation, reiki, chakra cleansing and such to protect myself from psychic attacks.
It is almost always you yourself doing the internal dialogue.
Meditation is about silencing all the voices, and then all the sounds,
and all everything, so you just are; a breathing living being.
Seems like that should have brought some assistance.
How come you went to psychic attack ?
Just because most of what the body decides is mostly only presented for
consideration, you yourself can decide how to enjoy life.
And the body is trainable.
You can decide to train, by using a specific diet, by exercise, by what
you read and enjoy, how you view the world.
The body is quite stubborn, and so that takes perseverance.
Post by t***@gmail.comThey've taught me to open doors and close my doors.
It is indeed possible to completely shut down them doors by being all
drugged up on anti-psychotics.
(or methods to a similar result)
I prefer being just fine with the wonder and splendour that magick brings.
Your issue is fear of voices.
Do you also cower from anyone else that speaks to you ?
You do not even have to ignore them, you could perhaps just use them as
sources of imaginary information.
Once you start seeing through them and start mocking the entire deal,
that is a point where you might want to get a friend to help out.
Coming back to your body not liking the whole change.
Realizing in full the strength that is the immortal indestructible core
of every single part of reality, that helps.
Post by t***@gmail.comThey often force me to open my third eye.
Really ?
How are you forced to open your minds eye ?
Night-terrors ?
Day-dreams ?
Suggestions ?
Post by t***@gmail.comIn an instant they made my body feel drained and I felt so sleepy.
What did you see ?
Post by t***@gmail.comWhen I told them I was going to sleep, in an instance(sic; instant) they took away the sleepiness.
How did they do that ?
Post by t***@gmail.comI've often get sexual physical sensations (attacks) and even aromas like perfume scents and foul smells.
Have you got a video of an fMRI recording of you having a
vision/hallucination for us to see ?
Interpretations optional.
Post by t***@gmail.comThey talk about erasing my memories and such and I can't remember things.
Use tricks to remember anyway.
Anker experiences with specifics.
Don't discuss your specifics, so nobody but you and your voices know them.
Post by t***@gmail.comThey have also mind controlled me and caused hallucinations as well. It's louder with running water and when the t.v is on too.
White noise.
ie; white noise seduces the mind to go into it's own world.
Have you experimented with classical music ?
That streams directed dreaming, and perhaps that works.
Post by t***@gmail.comMy emotions are controlled as well such as to where I will feel anxiety and cry out of the blue.
Relax your shoulders.
First thing you do, whenever; relax your shoulders and the body follows.
See something terrifying, and what do you do ?
You relax your shoulders.
Not run away, not scream in fear, no; just relaxing your shoulders.
That in itself is tilted enough to not consider the situation scary, yet
more absurd.
Absurdity can still be scary, yet training with that you seem to have in
plenty.
Post by t***@gmail.comI'm on 150 mg of antidepressant and it was working (felt numb) and the effects went away when they started doing adjustments to my mind.
What sort of adjustments ?
Post by t***@gmail.comI get images in my head that feel like they were forced because I never had them before.
Where you born blind, or some accident later ?
Sometimes people born blind still get images from the eyes, they just do
not connect reliably to the visual cortex.
Not claiming that your eyes work, just suggestions for investigations.
Post by t***@gmail.comI go back and forth whether this is clairaudience, clairsentience, and mind control like they say or schizophrenia.
What can you do ?
Can you sense when to leave to 'just' catch a train ?
(i've seen blind people take the train to work plenty of times)
How do you feel the atmosphere in a room ?
Post by t***@gmail.comI don't know who they are. There are children, men, and women doing recording my thoughts.
Have you such interesting thoughts then, so they should be recorded for
posteriority ?
Tell us some !
Post by t***@gmail.comThey said I've inflicted pain amongst them and they want out of it.
You could still mostly just be talking to your own body.
Post by t***@gmail.comThe only way I or they can get out is if I feel guilt and cry.
Crying get's quite the physical sensations.
Yet; who get's out ?
Just you /
Post by t***@gmail.comThey play games with me saying they lied and didn't and then lied again.
You could work out something for yourself, where you only tell the truth
yourself, about everything.
And then finding a way that still is just fine for people around you.
If someone asks you if you hear voices, you could reasonably answer that
you can hear them just fine.
Post by t***@gmail.comAnd sometimes they tell me to go outside with my hands up and lock the doors.
Is there something outside you yourself would also like ?
Post by t***@gmail.comThey do this everyday with me and it doesn't work.
Just going outside does not seem all that bad, when you yourself decide
to go.
Post by t***@gmail.comI have OCD as well and I can't stop visualizing so it calls them back.
With proper OCD, and psychotic episodes, how could you know if your OCD
ticks have been done, or just imagined ?
Post by t***@gmail.comI'm actually blind I cannot see.
Oh well, perhaps someone else can see for you.